To be frank.

It's embarrassing to admit that I do treat guys and girls differently. And yes, I do feel very remorseful for that.

Now that uni has started, the problem is becoming increasingly obvious.

I can never be as nice to guys as I am to girls. (If you girls think I'm nice :P) I suan guys a lot, I glare at them for a short period at times, which really makes me look arrogant or proud I know /: I know for myself that it is really rude. Sometimes I only realize it after a while. But usually when I do reflect upon things, it may already be too late.

I have always felt that there ought to be a wall between guys and girls to a certain degree.

I have no idea why I thought this way. Maybe it's cos of that traditional belief - 男女授受不亲, which may have stemmed from the fact that I came from a conservative school (in which I stayed for 6 years). Maybe when I was with my exes, I was already careful to distant myself more from guys so that they won't be jealous, and this continued on even till now.

To the guys that I've offended, but targeting at no one in particular, I'm really sorry. I don't know how many of you I did annoy, be it one or a dozen.

I know it's easy for one to say 'I don't mean it' cos I have done it repeatedly, even to those whom I really think can be good friends with me. But now I'd just like apologize and assure you that I'll try my best to not be mean from now on.

Buuuuuut I thank those guy friends and of course girl friends I do have, for accepting me for who I am despite my crappiness sometimes :P I love all of youuu! :D